body | border | body
When travelling on airplanes, I hardly notice the fact that I m continuously
crossing borders. Even when I am walking across them, on the moment my foot
steps over that boundary line, I do not sense any difference on the ground or in
the surrounding air.
I was a weak child, and had repeatedly broken my bones. When a segment is
defect, the entire balance is disrupted. What should have been the most
familiar of all; my body, was in fact also a collection of multiple segments whose
details I could not control. From this experience, and through the entity of ‘I’
itself, I have always felt the uncertainty of the self-existence, or the 'dasein'.
For me, this doubt for dasein is strongest in the relationship between the others
and against the society.
The term, ‘society’ is also vaguely defined.
Suppose I define it as, ‘an ensemble of relationships between individual and
individual, that propagate like ripples'. I am then, confronted with the question;
‘What is an 'individual'? In other words, how can I define 'myself ?.’
In relation to the society, ‘I’ could only exist as an imaginary concept. There is a
gap between ‘I’ that lives within the society and what I consider to be ‘myself’.
There is a sense of discomfort and anxiety towards the notion, ‘I’ that is defined
through and lives within the relationships between the others, transforming my
own existence, dasein, into something uncertain.
I think this feeling is somewhat similar to that of when I try to articulate myself
using ‘words’, while knowing there are some ‘things’ that are falling off from my
expression. Words that I bring out are not necessarily equal to my own will.
My doubt towards dasein also stems from a sense of suspicion towards the
‘ordinary life’ that is maintained by covering up the ‘extraordinary’.
We live by creating a ‘stable’ and ‘ordinary’ life. This, however, induces a strong
feeling of anxiety at an instant when a glimpse of ‘extraordinary’ appears in our
‘ordinary’ life, which in turn forces us to create even stronger ‘stability’. As a result,
those ‘extraordinary’ realities that cannot be processed and thus shake our stable
life, are omitted from life, as if they never existed. For example, I used to feel
tremendous fear towards ‘death’, but the fear diminished as I grow older. Had I kept
the fear towards ‘death’, I would not have been able to live at ease.
Yet, in essence, there should be no difference between the ‘ordinary’ and the
‘extraordinary’. One could not simply draw a border line to segregate the two.
Notions and begriffs are inadequate to fully articulate the rich and abundant
information that comprise this world. But if so, why do we try to determine the
world by words or concepts?
Ironically, it was the experience of encountering the ‘extraordinary’ in my
‘ordinary’ life, that made me aware of the separating border between ‘I’ and ‘my
body’. This is the experience that lead me to think about the 'uncertainty of
Could these 'borders' make people realise that there are indeed some 'things'
that fall out from our notion? Could they make people recognize anew the fear
When my broken bones were healed, the sense of the estrangement between
the border of 'I' and 'my body' had notably reduced.
Boundaries born and disappear. They are of ambiguous entity. And I waver
between their gaps.
The recognition of uncertain borders entail the 'uncertainty of dasein'.
To be aware of them, and to continuously seek to confirm my own dasein, I
think, is what 'life' is to me.
Based on the above stated idea, I will organize an exhibition under the theme,
'body and border'. This two-part exhibition is comprised of a solo exhibition,
and a group exhibition.
Text edited by: Yukiko Nagakura
Translation: Aki Naito